I never realised the things my family did kinda hurt me emotionally Mom - probably caused my insecurities since she pointed them out negatively when I was only 6-9, yells so much, forced me to go to krispy kream when I was suffering with my first ear infection, forced us to take pictures at disneyland (no rides at all, lil sister threw up, my legs were hurting and recently my brother told me I've been walking weirdly since that event)

Memories I have: Dad hitting mom while older brother was fueling his fire about something she did, dad choking older brother, grandma hitting mom while being "drank" (these happened years ago)

My dad said this was a false memory but I have a memory of my grandma pulling a gun on my older brother while screaming at him

My mom and older brother have convinced me to do what they'd like during my choices so much I don't even know how to choose for myself without worrying about other thoughts

Anyways just wanted to say that because I have nobody to say it to