Heart Broken by Anonymous person and $adman aka me

I was kneeling and my heart is sealing, I was breaking but I am a human being, seeing you with him made me think I was repeating so when I am bleeding I think was it cuz of you breathing? Your teaching and scheming were deceiving

your out there having a good time while I'm here grieving
I thought we were supposed to be achieving
but u never really cared about my feelings
I waited here while u were out there cheating

Now I feel like screaming, I was misreading our feelings, sometimes dreaming aren't as pleasing, I thought you were my achieving but you're my beating, now I don't feel like drinking or eating or even sleeping, guess I'll be leaving

I'm still disbelieving that you can do that to me.
and I'm still struggling to be healing,
and I'm just hoping that I'm just dreaming
when I found out you were cheating, I felt like I just took a beating
and I feel like I'm out here bleeding

But you weren't and never will be the one, yea was over, it's done, bet I get a better girl, hun. You a plastic toy gun and I'll make a better home-run, you ain't nun, I may have been low but now I'm high, son

I'm not a robot u know I got feeling I bet u never even cared
but the sad thing is that I never prepared for this
I want to disappear for ever I miss ur kiss

I gave you my heart and u f* king broke it
I loved u and u didn't why did u lie you could have said no
you didn't have to pretend to love me I can't continue with this
scr ew u sc rew ur fake love I don't need u now I'm making a dis
u might think you've hurt me forever but u only made me stronger

when I asked you why u cheated u said because ur going thru a hard time like what okay that's stup id common I've heard better
and when i tell my friends they all say forget her

still makin it what u think

which name is better $adman or lil Gun$hot