I was listening to music and a song came on where it said, "and nothing hurts anymore I feel kinda free." And all I remember thinking was, 'I would give anything in the world not to feel anything right now.' It sounds like the best thing ever. I'm tired of thinking and feeling like a burden, I'm tired of being the cause of bad things. I'm tired of feeling like I'm not loved when people tell me I am. I hate having anxiety attacks, and having moments when I can't even breathe- Cause bloody hell, not only does it hurt physically, but it hurts emotionally. It hurts to know that I'm like this. Sorry for the long paragraph.. just wanted to vent ig.