Help! I’ve been doing this since 5:30. (4 1/2 hours ago when I’m posting this)

Can someone paraphrase this for me? loaded like spoons into the belly of jesus where we lay for weeks for months in the sweat and stink of our own breathing jesus why do you not protect us chained to the heart of the angel where the prayers we never tell and hot and red as our bloody ankles jesus angel can these be men who vomit us out from ships called jesus angel grace of god onto a heathen country jesus angel ever again can this tongue speak can these bones walk grace of god can this sin live