Why is Winston shocked and troubled to see the phrase "Down with Big Brother" written repeatedly in his diary?

He was not aware that he had written these words.

the word that best matches the meaning of the expression "went to the big ocean" is died.

the goldfish died, which is why the father looks at the children mournfully. the "big ocean" is the father's way of saying fish heaven. he could have just said that the goldfish died, but this way, the children imagine the fish in a bigger, better place instead of just picturing a dead fish.

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