life is meaningless, without my girl-ever since she left-i've been overdosing on more than one epidural. I'm bleeding out of my wrists-twice a day, i think i'm gonna "rest" today; because everything's starting to turn gray. blood splatters all over the windows-looks like a murder scene; i told my mama i was off them drugs, but we both knew i wasn't clean. i miss her kissable lips; and the way she hung on to me; gee-she made me crazy. but those moments are over-to forget her- should i do another dose? should i take another pill? i'm feelin super ill-for rill. maybe a drink or 2? i don't even have a clue. why'd she let me down so hard? i'm so broken i'm slitting my wrists with a dirty glass shard. i would take a bullet hor her, but she wouldn't do the same; it's like she thinks this is all just a silly game. she said we could still be "friends", but with you girl; my love for you never ends. it'll just be a pain, with you rappin' me around your little finger- i thought you'd be there for my sickness/health-whether we did or didn't find a cure.